For the lack of a better word..The feeling of tiredness...like waking up after a 12 hour long sleep and yet still yawn the whole day, seeing the white part of the rubberband after stretching to its maximum...Circumstances compels you to let go of everything and smash them...where is the joy?

Its like poems that dont Rhyme,
sugar that tastes like Lime.
age without Time,
Branches without the Vine.

The season has passed where people excite over gifts and walking along gaudily lighted streets in Orchard...Retailers happily swim among the everflowing customers and banks pop up with spanking credit card deals which eases your wallet size and expands your blood pressure!!=)

This year was different, the feeling of christmas was like chalk and cheese..to be honest, christmas here felt kinda secular, felt like it was an alarm every morning, routine...there was an obligation to be here be there.. having to wish without its meaning...Its the first time after 2 or 3 years i guess...Reason being is my absence in Singapore for the past few times..

Hmmm!, on this day 1 year ago, water buffalows, padi fields, waterfalls and eating delicious and weird food was christmas eve!!

I totally lost track of time and the only thing i remembered on the 25 was driving up a hill and sat there for hours looking at this...Although it was quiet up there, I had a long and intriguing conversation...

Art, by Cambridge is the creation of something expressive or beautiful to the artist..it can be found in many forms; ACTING, painting, drawing, colouring a structure or even moulding something...Lets take abstract, one of the hardest to interpret especially for someone who doesn't study it..many would go through the first hand of studying the artist and have a better understanding of why through the artist lifestyle, would create such an abstract art..

True, if you would have known the artist, the objective of his/her work would be lucid enough for you to construe or interpret!!..imagine many of the peers who have the power of influence giving you their opinions and toppoing up with whats portrayed in congruence with their opinions, i who merely know the definition of art would have easily abhorred that art piece, burn it down, pound it, step on it, liquidate it, step on it gain and fertilize the grass by the bus stop...BUT!!If i had done that, i would have faced dire consequenses already...

If i were to show you a blue monkey, many who have a good sense of drawing might depict it in ways that would perplex your understanding, confuse you and switch your brains to a point where everything you see is so complicated...BUT in actual fact!!!! this artist who is of exuberant character, lively, and soul refreshing is just going tough a tough time at this point of her life!!..If I saw the surface of that art piece and concluded, i would have the power to remember names easily.
The thing now is i'm carring a burden 3 times my mental weight, my joy is placed to the test...